inferiority complex

2005-01-04T04:09:00.000-08:00

2005-01-03T14:35:00.000-08:00

school was okay i guess.nothing much happened,except that we now have a new vp,mrs goh.she irritates the hell outta me.cus shes pretty young and thus,not blind.blahh.damn annoying,i hate ta say this,but i kinda miss having mrs cheong alone instead.
and guess what?
tanshuwei's teaching me geog.OH GOODEY.
im gonna be hating sch soon.
anyways.
mum just told me smth about us not doing too well financially.so we're gonna move into a hdb and rent out our current house.she said at least it secures a 6-7000 salary per month.
i know i sound pretty superficial here,but i dont think im really gonna get used to being cooped up in a small house so fast.not that we're moving yet,but this place just brings back loads of memories..im gonna miss it.
i just.never knew things were that bad.i hate the terrorists who just hadta screw things up.i hate them,wth's their problem.suckers.
i hate/love money.
im really not feeling too good now,so takkaires all.

2005-01-02T21:53:00.000-08:00

hello everyonee!:D
sch's starting tmr!arent u excitedd?HOHOHO.
anyways.
today was boring.so i shall not talk about it.
however,i shall talk about a few changes coming up in the new year.
-my mummy decided ta raise our allowances.from a miserable 30,to an average 50.shes gonna put 200 bucks into our cashcards every month,and leave us ta spend it.she doesnt care how,but we're not allowed ta ask her fer more.i dont know whether ta be happy or sad.haha.i guess i should be happy luhs,i dont spend that much on food anyways.
see,i calculated already:
food:70
ezlink:20
schstationeries:15
extraaaas!:):95 dollars!lalalala.

kay i guess im pretty happy after all.but im pretty sure im gonna be spending even more on food than just this much.haha.either i spend really quickly,or i'll be too lazy ta go to the atm machine ta get cash.i had a bad experience once u see,i used my sister's card(and it was my first time),it got swallowed.HAHAHAH.im traumatisedd.:D
hopefully i can get my nike low dunks asap.

oh yes!
have i mentioned that kenny got me a superly adorable babypooh?ta think he actually remembered!cus i just said it was cute.sweet ayeee?too bad!hes mine!(:
HAHAHAHAHA.

alrightyoooo.sch's starting tmr,i cant wait!i know it sounds crazy,but really!i cant.
so here we goooooo.(:
congrats everyone!we're finally legal fer nc-16 shows.:D

2005-01-01T21:54:00.000-08:00

haha i know many are gonna hate me fer reminding them that sch's gonna start in a days time.(:
sch's starting!:D
heheheh.oh u just wanna pull tha trigger,dont you?-smirk
funny,even tho i havent started on my sch hols assignments,im still looking forward to sch starting.maybe its because i'll be seeing lotsa ppl again.clarchicks,stephy,wini,wendy,meleo,tash.(: the favouritest of my favourite ppl,always there fer me.(:
lets see..looking back on the year..
i think everyone's pretty much grown up lots,dont know why.it just seems so.its almost like going up into upper sec makes everyone suddenly realise the importance of friendship and everything.and ppl tend ta be less shallow,well,at least my classmates are.i feel pretty sad fer those ppl that are still putting on a mask everyday and pretending to be smth they're so not.no names are gonna be mentioned of course,but yeah.i pity them.hopefully they'll start seeing some light soon.
i kinda liked this year much more than the other years,its been pretty fruitful and meaningful.(:thanks to all those that made a difference.all my special ppl.love u all.
hmm.kay i shall stop being so sappy and go on to telling about how my week went.

i went down ta sch fer the ava camp,was really angry and reluctant at first.cus i was supposed to be at my family chalet damnit.I HATE SNGSHIT.-GROWLS. yeah but i guess later things were pretty okay,besides the part where i fell on the back of my head while trying ta chase after someone.blah.haha.embarrassing i swear.and it still hurts till now.hahaha.games were fun.facils were nice,lao and wenrong were good.hated the rest of the ICs.YOU GUYS SUCK!ESP LAYHOON ELIZABETH CANDICE!U GUYS SUCK!okay.haha.elizabeth was just being super annoying,by pouring cold water down our necks?fcuking irritating luhs.i swear shes the most hated green batch senior.and candice was being super bossy and rude.DAMN RUDE.blahh.and layhoon.well.shes just damn 'law-by-law' and has an annoying face.hahahaha.
finally got to go to my family chalet the next day,FINALLY!went to wild wild wet,THE LIFEGUARDS WERE SO NOT HOT LUHS!ppl that have been saying they're hot are BLIND.totally.and the water was friggin dirty,it was like..salty,full of hair,and warm?hahahah.rings a bell?lol.my cousins found some pretty neat stuff in the waters!hahahah.they found an earring,found a starhub sim card and a funkey card.ahahah.shows how much they clean the waters.and there were very little rides,little rides and many ppl just equate to long queues and coldness.so in conclusion,DONT GO TO WILD WILD WET.yes.(:

yupps.and then it was just home all day on thursday.poor baby was down with stomach flu!):but hes much better now,thank goodness.(:
countdown dinner on friday at keppel club was stupid.thank god fer shisi,pls.she totally made things better.and not to forget to mention,i looked totally retarded.even though the theme was "groovy 60s",i was the only one that dressed with the theme.blah.damn embarrassing.food was pretty good,but little?we paid 80 bucks fer head fer only 5 dishes!hahaha.how cheateddd.and then headed home at 1+ in the morning.reached home at 135,slept immediately.

today.i was supposed ta meet kenny at 1,but my dad was just,as usual,really slow with his actions,so i was 20 minutes late.SO SO SORRY BABY!and then walked around fer quite some time,then watched national treasure at 5,it was damn good,i say!the producer's damn good luhs!coming up with these kinda clues and stuff.good show good show!(:2 thumbs up!and then movie ended at 720,walked over to heeren ta get clar her christmas present,and i bought a dark blue tube.speaking of tubes,i realised i have quite a number of tubes.almost 10.hahahah.i love tubes!(:yeah anyways,then walked back ta cine ta watch kenny eat his banditto..then he walked me to my bus stop at 815.so..now im home.(:well,duh.haha.i guess our date was pretty good.EELOO!:D

hmm.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.(:

p.s.jennifer garner is HAWWWTTT!

2004-12-27T18:28:00.000-08:00

wishlist is uppp!-hinthint.
its not really well done.or precise,cus i didnt put much thought into it.i just made it fer fun.haha,since the whole world has it.i thought i'd just like the world ta know what i really wanttt.:D
i dont really want a fone charger anymore,since i just realised my fone charger's working fine.but having smth new still feels nice,so i guess i still want it.makes sense,no?
i'll be spending the next hour thinking really hard about what else i want.the nike low dunks tops the list,definitely.takers,any?i really want them bad.donations are more than welcomed too.even if its a small sum of $2.i'll be eternally grateful.-wink
anyways.
made an ice cream cake with my cousins today,wasnt successful at all.cus it wasnt even hard enuff,and the ice cream was melting like crazy..the crust of the cake was really hard so we couldnt break it and eat it either.hahaha.how successful.my FIRST ice cream cake ever.hohum.
and then had a game of LIFE.the game was terrible,i had the lowest salary and hardly any life cards.-_-"
but thats just what life's about isnt it,life's just full of shit.
gonna be away fer about..3 days?fer a family chalet thingy at pasir ris.CANT WAIT.-pui. (yeah right.)

alrights,im gonna go think about what i want and make my wishlist longer.toodles.(:

2004-12-21T00:32:00.000-08:00

are we hanging on because of love or because we've been thru so much?
its so hard ta let go,yet its so hard to hold on.
i dont wanna go thru what i went thru the time we broke up,but..
everytime i disappoint you i feel so terrible,i feel so selfish,i feel so wrong.

are u tired?

i love u still,so very very much.:'(

im happy when u are.

2004-12-20T22:42:00.000-08:00

im just really really mad at you.
change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her change her.
change her into smth i can actually love,not hate.
dont make me hate this home,dont make me turn rebellious.dont make me hate everything here.dont make me hate u.i dont wanna.

2004-12-18T21:49:00.000-08:00

thank goodness fer kenny.
his call made me feel much better.
thanks baby.(:

2004-12-18T21:35:00.000-08:00

i cant feel you.where are you.?)':
i hate how unfair the world is.i hate how theres no equality.i hate the way my mum treats me.i hate how my results are so screwed up.i hate feeling lost.i hate how my life is.i hate having no one ta cry to.i hate everything.EVERYTHING.
why arent you here.?
nobody knows what im feeling right now.
I HATE EVERYTHING.
i hate knowing theres no way out.

2004-12-18T11:56:00.000-08:00

im so worried.
no not about the stupid bumps issue,im worried about smth else.
im worried about next year,i wont say why.
AND ITS BLOODY HELL NOT BECAUSE IM PREGNANT.SO ANONYMOUS TAGGERS CAN STOP SPAMMING ABOUT THAT.
im so tired,i keep thinking,one way or another,either one is gonna be affected.
oabefiwugvnwornr.!
i really really really dont know what ta do.
i need someone i can REALLY talk to.
oh God where are you.
i cant fight this battle alone.

2004-12-17T16:52:00.000-08:00

oh great.
FANTASTIC.
instead of 2 bumps on my right,i now have 1 more bump on my left.
WTH IS THIS.????
WTH IS THIS.????
i cant even move my head.??
this hurts pretty bad,and im very much afraid.
its freaky to have bumps.am i grossing everyone out.?im sorry.
im just really worried.)':
IM VERY IRRITATED AND VERY ANNOYED PLS.

2004-12-16T23:01:00.000-08:00

first of all,
yayness fer kenny coming back tmr.!:Deven tho im mad at him fer nt calling,haha.

anyways.
past few days have been REALLY boring.the only thing i did was to go shopping,and i didnt even get to buy much cus it was the winter season.baahh.i only got ta buy a black spag strap and a black blouse.and SUPER DUPER stripey and colourful girl boxers.hahahaha.i totally love its lahs.!its mighty mighty cute.!im gonna get more of different designs.theres even a polka dotted one.hahaha.
oh yeah,i realised ive been getting uglier.firstly,i got a krappy haircut,which is actually not so bad anymore.and then,my complexion's like getting bad.ive got 2 pimples that just popped out.bahhh.and then ive been eating like a pig.!i bet i put on at least 1 kg.haha.IM UGLIER THIS HOLIDAYS.!):im gonna do smth about it.DEFINITELY.
hahaha oh yes,if anyone thinks that my friendster testimonials look really retarded because theres an overdose of christmas wishings,its because i was hyper fer one night,and i very stupidly sent EVERY single person on my friendster a merry christmas wishing.hahahaha.took me 2 hours.!it was damn tiringggg.hahahaha.so suddenly,my testimonials raised from 124 alllllll the way to 178.hahahaha.prolly more coming up.hahha,oh goodness,the cleverness of me.

im in a terribly good mood cus kenny's coming back tmr.!((:

2004-12-16T22:12:00.000-08:00

today was such a TERRIBLE DAY.bahhh.
kenny didnt call me at all since the day he left,kay maybe thats because hes busy or smth.
somebody totally gave me a cold shoulder when i asked her smth.
the STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID CURSED weather is SO screwed up.
ive got a freaking breakout,its making me feel DAMN UGLY AND DAMN UNEASY.
had a friggin backache and a VERY VERY VERY VERY terrible neckache,there are like 2 lumps sticking out at the back of my right side of the neck making it SO DAMN FRIGGIN HARD ta move my head.
actually,my WHOLE body is aching.
it feels like ive got a friggin fever.?but the degree just doesnt go up,what kinda bullshit is this.
i had a hard time getting up sofas and chairs and bending down.like wth.i could hardly get to anywhere.
SOMEBODY KEPT MSGING ME ON MSN AND IT FRIGGIN PISSED THE HELL OUTTA ME.STOP MSGING ME DAMNIT.I DONT WANNA TALK TO U.

MY WHOLE BODY FRIGGIN HURTS,AND THUS,MOST OF THE BAD MOOD.
IM SO ANGRY TODAY.BAHH.

2004-12-13T11:41:00.000-08:00

you're already friggin 13 years old and u still bloody hell dont know how to behave yourself,wth's wrong with you.?cleaning up one spot on the floor which u dirtied will kill u issit.?how irritating can u get,u're so friggin lazy that u cant even get off the sofa ta get the tissue box.
hahahahaahha.!see.!your stupid PS2 isnt working.BOOHOOHOO.you're just getting what you deserved.HAHA.

2004-12-11T21:23:00.000-08:00

hello everyonee.(:
past few days have been rather filled,at least i didnt spend them stoning away.
mon-weds:
helped at some annual kids camp thingy at my church,i had the youngest kids and they were the worst behaved.i hadta shout at them like dunno how many times.and there was this annoying boy called joseph that i really couldnt stand,i couldnt even stand his disgusting voice.he was such an irritating piece of shit.haha,but then again,hes just a kid.an ANNOYING kid.
it was fun anyways,there was a boy called caleb that was so sweet,he was the youngest,like only 5,but he made me a photo frame that he learnt during art period.haha.
and since the theme fer the camp this year was "rickshaw rally",supposedly japanese,there was lotsa origami going on.so i started folding,and soon got addicted.first day was spent folding cranes,second day was spent folding strawberries,and third day was just spent folding either cranes or strawberries.its really addictive if u get it right,and the sense of accomplishment after managing ta actually figure out what those jap instructions mean is nice.hahah.

thurs:
hadta wake up really early ta go down to newton mrt ta pick up the MITS and library and AVA ppl ta come over to my place.things started off pretty awkwardly,cus none of us knew each other.but things got better later when we started painting the banner.lisha is extremelyyyy sweet.!lol.shes like so innocent and stuff.?she doesnt wanna use the computer cus shes afraid she'll get addicted,and she actually thinks that friendster is dangerous.?hahaha,how silly.but shes so precious i swear,and not forgetting to mention,pretty too.(:
the banner turned out pretty good,waaayyy better than i expected.and then everyone just sat around and had a bitching session fer like 2-3 hours.?got ta know all of them better.it was quite good i must say.
then bus-ed down with them to kino so that i could get my coloured paper fer the origami i was gonna make.hahah.crazy.?yes crazy.i bought this set of really cute packet of animal skin pattern-ed paper,and i bought another packet of 500 sheets.hahaha.yes,500.hahaha.everything cost me like 17 bucks.?heh,kino sure knows how ta earn big bucks.-pfft.then bus-ed home again,rather stupid trip to town,hahaha.i spent like only 15 minutes there.?hahahaha.
fri:
spent the day with grace making christmas cards and presents.slacked around all morning till 12+ and then finally decided we hadta get down to actually DOING the cards before the day was wasted away,lol.so we bus-ed down to spotlight ta get the materials we needed and then ate a little,went ta the popular at orchard mrt ta get even more materials,then bus-ed back ta my placee.while making the cards,we watched my favourite,the runaway bride,and we also watched garfield.yupps.she finished her cards while i finished kenny's present.i really liked what i made,even tho the present was rather meaningless.hahaha.and then i attempted ta make some cards fer the really special ppl,futile of course,cus i screwed them up.and then she left at 8+,while i bummed around online till 12.yupps.
sat:
woke up at 10+,bummed around online blog hopping and playing really bad yahoo pool.lost everything single game and then got grouchy so decided ta quit.hahahaha,im such a sore loser,i was cursing all the way fer every single ball i missed.hahahaha.
and then got dressed then left town at..12+,reached at 1300,and then waited at the bus stop fer kenny,and then we walked around abit.met nat gerlaine and gerlaine's brother and some guy(i didnt catch his name.) fer a really really short while,while lunch-ing at el jay's.did u know that long john's in the olden times was called el jay's.?i kinda like that name better.(: yeah and then saw kenny's friend yuanni outside at the cafe,i seriously think shes damn cute with the way she talks.hahahaha.damn funny i swearrr,esp with her hand actions.lol.
then pool-ed at paradiz again,started off pretty okay,then things got worse,i just sucked.hahahaha.well i always have sucked at pool,but i just got even worse.yupps.but who cares lah,it was just a game anyways.pool-ed fer about 2 and half hours,then bus-ed down with kenny to tanglin mall ta meet the family fer dinner,i ate like helloads,hahaahha.i ate some western meal,and i helped my mum finish her laksa,even tho it tasted disgusting.no idea why i still stuffed it down my mouth.hahaha.burp-ed my way home,im still trying ta burp really loud.cant tho.):

the week was pretty much filled,and fun too.i cant wait fer christmas,im waiting ta see if there's anymore love actually kinda movies coming up,i totally loved love actually,watched it like 3 times.that show really brought about the christmas spirit in me.

anyways,kennyboo,pls takkaire of yourself when u're in thailand,try not ta get too injured okay.?gonna miss u helloads when u're gone,ilu.(:

and to all the very very very bored shitheads that wanna spam me,just leave ur disgusting filthy name,its not like im gonna shoot u or whatever.

2004-12-05T21:07:00.000-08:00

blogging again.!(:

heres whats been happening fer the past few days without my rents around:

weds:
kennyboo came over and slacked around the entire day,it was really sucky at the beginning,but things got much better later.kenny totally loves the food my granny makes.haha,i told him ta adopt her as his 'gan ahma'.but he refused to,even tho my granny looked so happy when i told her that he was gonna be his 'gan sunzi'.ovells.i had great fun browsing thru his friendster and msn,disturbing the ppl on his msn list.sheralyn's nice.!(:i thought she was like some really fierce judo kid,but it turns out shes reallaye cute.
i do not like green eggs and ham,
i do not like them sam i am.!
sheralyn.!im one of the few intelligent ppl that actually knew this.!!!((:
and there was this person called..dunno what,kenny's ignored mei,haha.pretty lianish,so i disturbed her fer awhile,hahaha.and then there was this xiao_dunno@hotmail.com [?] i also made fun of that person,i msged the person and said "hi.!im da_dunno.!"i think i irritated the person,cus he/she never replied.who cares anyways,i had fun.hohoho.
then we got bored so we decided ta go ta sleep or smth,i made kenny carry me into the room,and then we slept,we didnt do anything kayy.!we just sleptt.and i got hugged to sleeep.aahh bliss.(:
and then we watched lotsa tv,waited fer spongebob.and then watched sg idol,taufik won.!:Dthat stupid bengster sly didnt win.woohooo.
and then my sister was being nice so she allowed him ta stay over,but she didnt allow us ta stay in the same room.bleh.ovells.
woke up really early,say 8+.?even tho kenny and i agreed on 11+.hahaha,went in and disturbed him fer awhile,then came out fer more cartoons,he came out soon after.and i surprised him with breakfast.!!i cooked him eggs.!!!:Dand then we cartoon-ed lots,and then decided ta go ta sleep again.hahaha.peegs arent we.yayness.
and then lunched at coro,had lemon chicken rice,it wasnt as good as before.!the chicken wasnt even crispy anymore.!):ovells.
then said buhbye ta kenny.!):
sat:
played pool and watched the incredibles.!!finally watched the incredibles,and its sooo funny.!dash and jackjack are like how cutee.!!:D
oh yes pool,was really tyco and won a few games.heh,really really tyco,and i wouldnt have won if i didnt get help.hahha.like LOTS of help,hahaha.im going there ta play again next week.!
sun:
um,totally did nth.sadness.woke up at 12+,and then chatted with kennyboo online till 4+,and then daddy finally came back from indo.!:D
and then read some trashy mags till 5+,and then slept till 7+,came online,chatted with kenny a lil,and the he went fer his pretty long dinner even tho he said he'll be back soon.haha.
boring dayy.bleh.

2004-11-30T21:18:00.000-08:00

i shall not whine about my hair,ive spent an entire night crying over it,and i shall just hafta learn ta get over it.

today was rather boring.vicky,(came over ta stay last night)hadta go to sch in the morning,so she woke up early and.just left.?haha,she didnt even wake me up ta send her out.hahah.
and then i slept on till 1030,then cartoon-ed till 12+,came online..stoned till 3,(nobody wanted ta talk to me.!))): )and then cartoon-ed summore,then slept till..530 or smth.yeah,and finally.!everyone came back home,mum bought me like tonnes of junk ta feed on while shes gone,chips and chocolates.yay.!(:
stoned around summore online..till..630,and then went to bt timah food centre fer dinner.mighty good pls.!had stingray,carrot cake,kangkong and some clam thing.mighty mighty mighty mighty good.!
and then..well,yeah as u can see,im back to stoning online again,yeah how boring can my day get.heh.

today was fairly good,i got to spend some time alone with myself.
kay im just consoling myself,how retarded.im a lil sore actually,cus kenny didnt reply my sms-es.heh.
but owell.!tmr will be greeeeaaaaaaaaaaaatt.!:D

2004-11-28T22:29:00.000-08:00

okay i finally decided ta blog.(: ive been procrastinating fer farrrrr too long.

well,trip to chiangrai was mighty good.got ta know lotsa ppl better there.and not to forget,i also grew closer to clarchicks.:Dwe had a majorly fun time there,our convos were really sarcastic and hilarious.
byebye,
takkaire,
have fun.
hahahah.inside joke,sorry.
things there were super cheap pls.!every,and i really mean.EVERYTHING was below 10 sing bucks.(:well fer me at least,clar's mighty cute shoes were 12.haha.and we were super cheap skate.!we actually found joy in even bargaining off just 2 bucks.?hahahah.cheap thrill.but there wasnt much ta buy lahs,things were so lian.blyuck.i only managed ta get 2 belts and a halter.bought stuff fer others too of course.got kenny chewing gum,a monkey and a ring.(Thank goodness it fitted his finger.!)and the monkey really reminded me of him,but why.?i shant say.oooo sensitive issue.:Droflmao.and i bought my mum a new cell cover,my bro some chewing gum.

oh yes,now i'll get down to the mainpoint.
heres what i actually did at the home:
-i kinda helped the rest with planting the dragon fruits.of course in the end clar and i ended up slacking our asses.we actually had a competition ta see who could walk from the hall to the fields the fastest with the most water left in the cup.?how stupid is that.haha.well i thought of it,so im the only stupid one.hahaha.
-played games with the kids every night.i taught them the "yo my name is jo" and the "making melodies in my heart" action songs.i thought it was pretty good.i really played like crazy there.hahahaha.and not to forget,i fell a million times too.everyone should check out my knees my elbow and my shoulder.hohoho.wanna know how i fell.?i fell while going down the mountain,and i fell while, racing clarchicks.(if u cant see it too bad.haha.)
-wrapped presents fer the kids there.everyone had 3 kids.kids there were soooooo precious.!there was this girl called dwang chai who actually cried cus her dad was having a second wife.?how saddd.and smth mrs gurung said really struck me hard,"just by a small chance,u would have been here instead of being in comfy singapore."or smth like that.but u get my point,and its so true.so everyone should really treasure what u have.(:
okay my next line's gonna sound really spoilt.
-FOOD SUCKED PLS.!pork smelled like pee,like really.!so i just fed on the junk there.ahaha.

yeah so i guess thats what we did there.(:im going again next year.promised somphong alreadyy.

kennyboo:
i love u a whole lot.
more than the stars in the sky,
more than the fishes in the seas,
more than the leaves in the jungles,
more than the clouds in the sky,
more than the hairs on a gorilla,
more than the alphabets in the thickest book,
yeah u get my point.(:
-ilu.shmwahs.

2004-11-16T20:40:00.000-08:00

i havent been blogging fer the past few days.well yeah its pretty obvious.haha.

sat:
hung out with kennyboo after tuition,stoned around town till 6.yupps.went home pretty early.we were trying ta find my purple bands but they came in sets with other colours as well.):ppl that sell stuff like these are jian mannnn.!purposely sell in different colours so that if u wanna buy a certain colour only u hafta buy alot so that u can have alot of the same colour.kay my english sucks here.hohum.yuuupps.sat was nice,PEACEFUL.hahah.
mon:
ummm..lets see.
yesterday i woke up at 10+ and sat in front of my sister's comp watching friends.i totally love it.its the only english comedy that can make me laugh like shit.
and then lunched at soup restaurant with family,ate a hell lot.felt damn bad,bought even more fattening stuff.eg,a BUCKET of maltesers.??wthh.i needta controolll.hate it when i binge.-pfffttt.
and then came home,watched summore friends,tried to sleep,but decided ta come online,chatted with kenny like forever,played some yahoo pool.okay,played ALOT of yahoo pool.and needless ta say,i lost.baah.haha.
oh.!and there's a really bimbotic game at http://myscene.com ,yupps.its under games,and then under beauty studio.its fer girls only,not guys.u can give the pretty dolls a make overr.!how cool's that.hahaha.kay im just reliving my childhood.
tues:
went to sch at 9,realised that meeting was at 10 instead,so i met whendi and jean at macs fer breakfast.was friggin full,and then i felt bad again.SHEEESH.
oh btw,today was totally BINGE DAY.i swear im starving tmr.and if i dont,im gonna give..im gonna give everyone testimonials.:Dmy precious precious testimonials.
and then headed back to sch,passed ta peanut my passport,and then i left.headed down ta amk mrt ta top up my ezlink card,then cabbed back to coro ta meet kennyboo.
we rented a vcd called "all that".i finally got down to renting that show.!hahaha.the last time i watched it was like..3 years ago.hahah.totally loveee.the main lead actress is friggin hotttt.kenny was drooling.!:D
well.we watched...shrek(the first),all that and the medallion.which i did not really take much interest in.i thought it was pretty lame.but kenny was rather into it.haha.
then kenny stayed on till 8 cus he wanted ta watch spongebob at 730.HE CAN MEMORISE THA SONG.!ahahah.even i cant do that.silly.
oh yes,like i said,today was binge day.
heres what i had:
-hotcakes with sausage meal
-curry cup noodles
-curry chicken
-chips
-spaghetti
-lotsa soft drink

BAHHHH.binge binge binge.yanggs where has ur self control disappeared to.????
U'RE STARVING TMR.

oh btw,have i mentioned how much i love clarchicks.?she got me a fake gucci from shanghai.!she does think about me.!hahahaha.

I LOVE CLAR.!:D

2004-11-12T22:22:00.000-08:00

she smiles,she laughs.but deep down inside,shes not happy,at all.her sadness and her pain,she hides it all.she doesnt know whats really happening,but even if she did,she would choose not to know anything at all.the girl is hurting badly,she wished her certain someone would be happier.she didnt understand why she was always doing and saying the wrong things.she hates herself for her impulsiveness,she really does.
she hates herself so much for everything that she isnt,she hates herself for not being perfect.
she just wished,there was a way to make things better.

2004-11-12T00:19:00.000-08:00

i feel so lousy,u're pissed and upset.and i dont even know why.i cant get u ta open up ta me,i cant even cheer u up.
i cant think of anything i can do fer you.
i just realised i really havent been doing much fer you.
im sorry.
tell me what i must do to be share part of your sadness,i wanna be there fer you,dont push me away.

2004-11-08T01:45:00.000-08:00

1// Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls.They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2// Guys hate flirts.
3// A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4// When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
5// "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten?" are the usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out of stammering.
6// Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7// When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8 // Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
9// Guys will do anything just to get a girl's attention.
10// Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11// When guys want to meet your parents, let them.
12// Guys want to tell you many things, but they can't.
13// Guys cry.
14// Don't provoke the guy to heat up. He will.
15// Guys can never dream or hope too much.
16// Guys usually try hard to get the girl who dumped them.
17// When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
18// Giving a guy a hanging message like,"You know what?uhh..nvm!" would make him jump to conclusions that is far from what you're thinking.
19// Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20// Guys are good at flattering, but they usually stammer when they're talking to the girl they really like.
21// When a guy makes a long "ummm.." or makes any excuses when you ask him to do you a favour, he's actually saying he doesn't like you and he can't lay down a card for you.
22// When a girl says "no" a guy hears it as "Try again tmr"
23// You have to tell a guy what you want before he gets the message clearly.
24// Guys hate gays.
25// Guys love their moms.
26// A guy would sacrifice his lunch money just to get you a couple of roses.
27// A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But it doesn't mean he likes her.
28// You can never understand a guy unless you listen to him.
29// If a guy tells u he loves you once in a lifetime, he does.
30// Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31// Like Eve, girls are guys' weaknesses.
32// Guys are very open about themselves.
33// It's good to test a guy before you believe him. But don't let him wait too long.
34// No guy is bad when he is courting.
35// Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even one small dot.
36// Guys really admire the girls they like. Even if they're not really pretty.
37// If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give him advice.
38// A usual act that proves that a guy likes you, is when he teases you.
39// Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
40// Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but always unluckily choose the wrong one.
41// Guys virtually brag about anything.
41// Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
42// Guys think too much.
43// Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
44// Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy.
45// Guys tend to get really possessive when they're serious about a relationship.
46// When a girl makes a guy suffer during a relationship, it would be even harder for him to let go of that girl.
47// Get to the point. Don't beat about the bush.
48// Guys always tries to secretly smell your hair, but you always find out.
49// Acts really cute when he wants something from you.
50// Guys would dance with you even if he feels like a dork.
51// Give you the remote control during a game.

AWWW.(:

things girls like about guys:
1// the way they try to act so tough.
2// how they write girls' letters.
3// the way they smell.
4// how they feel so safe in their arms.
5// the way they say "i love you"
6// when they call you to make you feel better.
7// the way they try to act cool in front of his friends but when you're alone together he is a totally different person.
8// the way the guy can talk on the phone with you for hours even tho they hate it.
9// the fact that no matter how mad he is at you, you know that deep down inside he still loves you more than anybody.
10// how they pretend not to care when you're with another guy, but deep down inside they actually do.
11// how they can wait forever just for you to get ready.

i cant find anymore.hahahahh.
yay.!and thats all fer now thenn.!:Dhappy readingg.!

2004-11-06T21:48:00.000-08:00

friday:
kennyboo came over earrrrrrrrlyyyy in the morning.we watched garfield and the terminal.yupps.garfield's pretty cool,hes majorly cute.esp the dance he did at the last part of the show,where he landed up in a split.hahah.friday was just really slackkk.it was tv tv tv tv all day longgg.-nods-yupps.what bliss,haha.and then he left fer his trng,mind you.the very nice walked him all the way out again.!arent i just about the sweetest thang arounddd.??yes i am.(:

saturday:
saturday was pretty tiring.i only got home at 12.?yupps.went fer tuition at 11,did mad matrices.i also died cus it was so confusingg.!and i was just staring at the time hoping that it'll turn 1 soon anyways,i wasnt even concentrating.i almost got kicked out of class.-pffft.
and then bus-ed down to cine at 1,luckily the bus came immediately after i reached the bus stop.am i lucky or whatttt.?its happeneed twice already.:D
oh yeah.!i saw the pretty pretty pretty mel wong.!shes getting prettier and prettier day by dayyy.nods-
okay and then we watched princess diaries 2 at lido cus cine was soooo friggin crowded.):i dont think kennyboo wanted ta watch that show actually.hahahah.so thanks fer watching with mee.!(:its a good show.funny shitt.hahhaa.the maids in the show are hilariouss.!lol.

and then after the movie we just simply walked around and did nothing i guess.ahaha.till...6+ going 7.yuppps.then i headed down to gracey's place with my sista.finally saw my darling joseeee.!:Dshes damn cute lahh.hahaha.so happy ta see them again.:Dthen since all 3 of them were mugging fer their's a's,i just slept in gracey's room.ahaha.till...11+.?then mumsies came over ta pick us up.
reached home at 12,was so tired i plonked into bed without changing.yucks.hahahaha.

I LOVE THE CRINKEYY.!:D
and kennyboo too.

2004-11-04T19:29:00.000-08:00

i guess i got him irritated again.am i really that irritating.?):u know,its not like i really enjoy asking u the same question twice,i just dont know what else ta say to u,im really trying.and i know u are too.but i feel really helpless and clueless.somehow,i just cant find a way ta reach to u.i cant cheer u up no matter what,i cant get u ta open up to me.
sometimes i really envy nat.i envy how she always manages to talk things out with u,i really do.she always manages ta make u seem happier.no,of course im not jealous or doubting u.i just wished there was some part of me that knew how ta reach to u.
i'll try even harder if this isnt enuff,losing u was just too painful.i dont wanna go thru that again.so what if the tears are flowing now.?so whattt.??it beats crying when its all too late.
i'd do anything just fer u ta feel better.anythingg.

2004-11-03T22:00:00.000-08:00

today was majorly tiring.!but pretty fun i guess.(:
woke up at 9+,was getting ready ta go fer geog,when i decided ta pon it.so i kinda woke up fer nth.:haha.then slacked around online..and then got ready at 1130 and cabbed down to sch.and it was only,did i realise i didnt know what our sch address was.!so the convo betweeen me and the driver went like this:
me:"uncle,chij st nicholas girls sch pls,"
uncle:"arh.?what.?"
me:"umm.its in amk."
uncle:"avenue 5 ah.?"
me:"umm.yeayea."
uncle:"opposite mayflower ahh.?"
me:"umm.yeayea."
and then uncle calls his friend..they speak in hokkien.
uncle:"avenue 5 or avenue 2.?"
me:"umm.avenue 2."
uncle:"2 or 5.?"
me:"umm.2 i think."
uncle:"then just now u said 5.?"
me:"..."
okay so what if i dont know where our sch is.?haha,i bet many others dont too.
and then in sch we did the cca fair rehearsal,it took a shorter time than i expected,so wen char and me went towning.super fun pls.!we were snapping photos in the mrt and pretty much got lotsa attention from many.hahaha.and then when we reached somerset,it was raining.so,we ran from somerset to cine.!in the rain.!like how fun lahh.!:Di had so so so much funn.!and then it was terribly cold when we got into cine.haha,and some idiots were like,"wahseh damn chio damn chio,"-rolls eyes-sickening asses.then we,no,i lunched at cine food court.food was rather yucky,but i ate it anyways.and then rain stopped,so we walked over to heeren..walked around fer awhile,i bought a super cute bracelet and some black and white fcuk bands.!im gonna wear them on saturday.!!:Dahahaha.its damn cute kayy.!
and then we sat at the fountain and started snapping even more pictures,like TONNES more.!!it was waaaaaaayyyyy funn.!i totally love wen and char.!:D
and then we headed back to sch at 445,and then had a meeting at 530 till 620.mum picked me up at 640.
and now im just sitting at home uploading my photos.!:D

new pics uploaded in album1.!((:from..83 onwardsss.

ILOVEYOUHOTTIEE//

2004-11-02T21:09:00.000-08:00

rn4w3^^%$$&&&($#$$%$^#$@@#@^@@@!###!!@!!
i so hate sch.!!
woke up at friggin 630 today.!):on a holiday kayy.!!reached sch at 725,walked in with zeewee bestie and whendi.!:Dmy goody woody moody loody doody toody hoody foody noody roody zoody coody boody joody friends.!(hahhaha okok i think everyone gets my point.)then had math.blearghh.and then i realised i fergot ta bring my pencil case.!i brought my e math text only ta realise they were already onto sec 4.!!)):i tried ta buy it,but the bookshop was closed.!i seriously wonder what money the book shop earns,it opens at 7,takes a break till 11,and closes at 2.???and it doesnt even open on public holidays and sch holidays.????ridiculous.!
and then i had a superrr heavy recess.hahahaha,had rouyuanzhou.!and i very act-smartedly[?] went to ask fer more rouyuan.!and in the end i was sooo friggin full cus i stuffed everything down my mouth.!lol.!i really hate the feeling of being too bloatedd.
and then there was science.!we hadta move to the science lab in the sec block.dunno sci lab what lar.but thank god mrs tan siew kim wasnt around most of the time.!!:Dand we obviously didnt do our assigned tasks.hahhaha.
mum made me cab home cus she was lunching with her taitai friends.as usual.hahaha,my mum's my role model.!she leads a life of total luxury i swear.!she even goes fer flower arrangement classes.??hahahaha.
yay kenny was online.!thank goodness,we chatted fer about..2 hrs.?-shrugs.it was a pleasant pleasant convo.then he hadta leave earlier than he was supposed to,by an hour.?haha.was pretty disappointed,but owells.!he was sweet and gave me short call.-grins-
ilu babykenny.!:D
and then i..hmm.what did i actually do,oh.!i tried searching a nice tasting dry instant noodles that tasted like yesterday's.hahahaha.yesyes im so unhealthy.owells.but i couldnt find it,after opening like 3 different packets.?hahahaha.!so i left like 3 uncooked packets in the fridge.!hahaha.
i cant remember what time i slept at already,im seriously suffering from short term memory.):there are so many things i dont remember.ahaha.):
then woke up at 830.bahh.and im feeling all groggy now.hahha.

thats all fer todayy.!:D

2004-11-01T15:12:00.000-08:00

yay its a happy day.(:
i went out with my popsies at 11,shopped fer stuff.and i got a pair of levis and finally.!!!a proper black tube.!!-grins-zara's finally selling them again.!those that need it,they're there againn.!go grabbit.!:D
lalala,i totally love my levis.they're like super crinkled.!lurrrfeeeely pls.!(:crinkled and faded.aahhh.it deserves to be hung above the rest of my clothes.haha.i shall save a HUGEEEE space fer it later.i shall called it The Crinkeyy.:D

whoopsayes i think mumsie's pretty upset.):
all cus i stupidly told her i didnt wanna go hk or shanghai.blehh.and my very smart sister went,"i dont wanna go hk either,"and my mum was like,"so i cancel both ur tickets ah.!"den i was like."yeahh."AND THEN.!cheeseandwhiskers.!my sister just had ta go say,"but i can go with josephine instead.??"!!!!!!!!like hello.???u just said u didnt wanna go and now u wanna go with jose.???not very smart there.kay i bet nobody that reads this understands what im talking about.haha.OHWELLS.
so i guess im not going hk anymore.maybe i'll be forced ta go fer the family trip thingy to msia or smth.:
hopefully not.if im not going anywhere,then i'll only be going ta chiangrai.oh goodeyy.:D

ahh i totally love The Crinkeyy.not only because its crinkled,and because its faded,another reason why i totally love it is becauseeeeeee...-drumroll-

ITS FREE.!:D

haha well not exactly lah.more like my dad paid fer it.hahahah.but i didnt hafta pay fer anything anyways.so i guess its free,in a wayy.
alrightiee i shall go knee in a corner and reflect on my bad behaviour of overspending.!((:

+and i kiss your eyes,and thank god we're together.(:+

2004-10-31T15:16:00.000-08:00

haha at the rate im eating at,im gonna bloat into a gigantic balloon soon.pretty lahhhh.!hahaha.
anyways,i had church in the morning,kinda slept thru my class with my head bent down.hahaha,i kept shaking my legs so that i'll look like im awake.hahaha.sneaky sneaky ayee.!hahaha.den i finally decided all the blood was getting to my head and it hurt so i got up.i pray that i didnt look like i just woke up,cus the teacher kept staring at me.haha.
and then i lunchedd.bahh,oh wells.this is what ive eaten so far.pls dont be too shocked.haha.
-sausage mcmuffin meal(with eggs and cheese.haha.)
-hot fudge sundae
-wanton mee.

NOT ALOT AT ALL LAHH.!hahahaha.

anywaysss,i think my brother is a sibiantai.!he actually listens to chinese literature.????he was like asking my mum smth smth smth about liu bei,and then my mum answered wrongly and he was like telling her answer.????WTHHH.hahahaha.

oh yeahh anyways:
happy halloween.!whoooooo....(its supposed ta sound like a ghost.ahem.)
yay i wanna go trick or treating.!i shall go grab some sweets from my neighbours later.hahaha.i remember there was one year when kids came to my door and went "trick or treattt.!"and then i went "trick.!"and then i slammed the door.hahahahahahhaha.!im such a mean shitheadd.hahahaha.but its hilarious,u gotta admit it.haha.

i miss my childhood days.):i used to blade and cycle and dig holes in the sand fer babies ta fall into.i also used ta make "bombs" with my neighbour's perfume.bahh,i seriously miss my childhood.

oh and clar pris and steph are leaving fer shanghai tmr.!!)):
the 3 of u.!pls come back in one piece.!and no china accent pls.!
yuppyupp.gonna miss u guys.thats all fer today.!

2004-10-30T22:41:00.000-07:00

date today was terrible,i shall not talk about it.but thank god things got better at the end.

and after that i mrt-ed down to amk ta meet clar and pris,and then cabbed down to chuiyen's place.-nods-her house is damn cute lah.!it looks like some cottage.!so warrmmm.!i lurrrfeeee her place.!
oh yes,before i forget.
chuiyen is a SUPER GOOD host.!:D
she really is.!everyone should thank herr.!thanks chuiyen.!!she just totally rocks lahh.(:food was good,and the awkward silence i was expecting didnt happen at all,talked to everyone.everyone's still as crappy as ever,THANK GOD.!i love 6faith 01.!no snobby shits.it was just good.-nods-
oh yeahh.!and everyone's like so pretty now.!!esp. sherri and simone.!my goodness they're like hot shits lahh.!!!-jealous.

so i guess thats all that happened today.did so much,but nothing ta blog about.haha,how weird.owells.

pics uploaded btw,from 69 onwards.and i look like crap in every single one.OH GOODIEE.

2004-10-29T19:43:00.000-07:00

goodness im feeling so so so stupid noww.
i just got an sms from kenny at 5+.
"hmmm?yeayea.haha.why suddenly ask?-hugs."

im just feeling a little sore.
im being such a paranoid freakazoid here.):thats what happens when im feeling all alone,i start letting my thoughts run wild.and its a badbadbadbad habit.i hate myself at times like these.i feel alone and neglected,when i know its nt true.im just being all stupid.KJSRGV49-024-3-19##%52~~!!!!
so i guess i worried fer nth.how retarded,not kenny,i mean me.
sigh.
sorry everyone,u can just read this entry,but dont say anything about it.i dont really mean anything im saying right now,its all just coming out cus im not happy.im such a mean shittt,): im so pms-eyy.baahhh.
sorry kenny,sorry ive been such a bitch fer the past few days.and u have been giving in to me all the time.thanks.just ignore this entry okay.?its just bullshit,but i gotta let it outt.i dont mean anything okay.?

(:

there,see.?im smiling again.i just hadta let it all out.and to all those bitches that keep poking their noses into my life by reading my blog everyday and then yakking on and on about it.go ahead,im just sorry u dont have lives of ur own.
i hope kenny comes online soon.i miss ya`

im feeling much better.
sorry baby,i wont let what im feeling affect our convo tmr,i promise.

ILUILUILUILUILUILUILUILUILUILUILUILU.REALLY.

ISHALLBEHAPPY.:D

2004-10-29T15:02:00.000-07:00

the day was terrible.!):
firstly,i dont know where kenny is,thats like the main reason why im so upset right now,last night he just went offline all of a sudden and he didnt reply to my 2 sms-es and till now he still hasnt sent me anything.im seriously wondering where he disappeared to.im kinda worried.i hope you're okayy.
and then..well,today kinda marks the last day of sch.except that sec3s hafta go back next week fer some shit lessions.so i dont really know what this day should be labelled as.
i was rather moody today.sorry to all those that suffered.!sorry im such a mean shitt.):
where are u where are u.!im friggin worriedddd.!
meleo was angry with me cus i didnt attend the selling photos thingyy.she said all excos hadta go,sorry then,i kinda fergot.im really sorry aights.?i really really fergot.
sighh.
i'll update more later.

2004-10-28T21:09:00.000-07:00

kenny's like damn cute lahhh.!
his msn's nick is like :
"she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more.she loves me the most.she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more says:"
hahahah,and his explanation fer this nick was:
she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more.she loves me the most.she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more says:
its suppose to be like.she loves me.she loves me not.
she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more.she loves me the most.she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more says:
when pluckin the rose.
she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more.she loves me the most.she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more says:
budden i change it to this
she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more.she loves me the most.she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more says:
so tht no matter wad
she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more.she loves me the most.she loves me.she loves me more.she loves me even more says:
u'll be lovin me.

hahaha.!i think his explanation's damn cuteee.!
kayyy im just easily amused.ahaha.
ILURVEYAAA`.!

2004-10-28T19:02:00.000-07:00

i am such a mean girl.):
i was feeling all pms-ey and so i got upset cus i didnt get any msgs from kenny.how much meaner can i get.?i feel so terrible.!!and kenny was being so so so so so sweet,he actually apologised to me when it was my fault.!:D
U SWEET THANG`.!ILUBCHEWS LARHS.!:D
anyways,sch was pretty much okay i guess.
as usual,i took summore pictures of myself.haha.pretty funny ones today.but i only took a few,cus i fergot ta charge my battery last night.):i shall go charge it later.hahaha im just sooooo narcissistic.[?]
there was math again today,and as usual,mrs yeo was drivin me nuts again,prolly explains why i was in such a bad mood.all her faulttt.!and can u believe it.??i still hafta see her next week.!its all because of her i hafta go back to sch next week.blearghhh.!
and there was chinese.!:Dwe watched this funny show called "LUBING HWA." yupps.i dont know what its called in english la,but its a 1970s show,peanut face said it earned a jing ma jiang,not bad ayeee.quite sad la,the boy and girl in the show were really good with their acting.-nods-
and then,ms fazi,as usual,wasnt around fer lit,she's such a slacker.!hardly around,always on leave.haha,but thats prolly one of the reasons why my class loves her.she's kinda pretty too.(:
and then there was cca after sch,which i didnt even feel like going for.oops.?haha.winnie wasnt in a very good mood,so i guess she got kinda pissed off when i left earlier.double whoopsayes.!-grins-
so i guess thats almost what my day was like,pretty boring.haha.sadness.

oh yeahhh.!!!ms ho invited my whole class to her wedding.!!MY GAWD HER HUSBAND IS DAMNNNNNN SWEEEEEEET.!!!!
they actually went all the way to perth just ta take ur wedding photos.!!!!so damn sweet lahhh.!!!kk i planned alreadyy,fer my wedding,im going to paris ta take minee.!but i shall make sure my poses are made by me,the photographer shall not order me.!hahaha,im so terrible.-grinss.-

yay more ppl are visiting my blog.!heres a big thankew to all those that tagged.!(ESP. DAFFIE)

THANKEW.!:D

and once more,

THANKS BABY KENNY.!!IM WELL AWARE OF ALL UR CHANGES FER ME.U'RE REALLY APPRECIATEDD.!

kay,nuff said,clar's rushing me fer the entry.haha.
oh yes,uploaded some pics.from 61 onwards.haha,(only 8 pictures.)

2004-10-27T16:59:00.000-07:00

another regular boring dayyy.
im still kinda pissed with the school,eoys are already long over,why do we still have one more stupid wk of sch.?its not fairrr.!raahhh.!stupid sch.!

anyways.
sch was okay i guess,at least there wasnt math today.mrs yeo has already driven me crazy with all her math yesterday.haha,there was ss science and chinese today.i prolly only wrote notes fer science.chinese and ss were totally slack periods.!-grins-
ms lai peckee made my class,3 truth,a sub science class combine with a class with all the china scholars fer ss today.OH FUNNESS.!i realised the bigbigbig contrast between our classes.the differences was:
-only 1 girl from that certain class didnt bring her ss text.
well guess what.?
only 3 girls from my class brought theirs.!
-everyone was really quiet and listening during ss from that class.
what were the fellow 3truthians doing.?
OH MARVELLOUS.!PLAYING BINGO AND TIC-TAC-TOE.!COLOURING EACH OTHERS NAILS WITH A MARKER.!woohooo.!
-that class had at least 4 prefects,of which 2 were running fer the position of the head prefect.
what about my class.?
OH.!NO PREFECT.!NONE.!NADA.!
hohohohoho.
and u were wondering why my class was hated by all teachers.?
hilarity i swearrr.!
and then there was science,yea i kinda copied here and there.cus mrs tan siew kim was sooooo alert.!if i didnt copy she'll prolly come to me and confiscate my fone on the table and kope the chips under my desk.evilness.
oh yesss.
meleo was nice.!she lent me money ta buy some food.mumsies has been rather stingy with her money lately.haha,so im like hardly with cash.i still owe clar 5 bucks fer the stupid book.raaahhh.!hate owing ppl money.but i love lending ppl.!(:
and then chinese was totally fun.!we practically slacked our asses off.!:Dpeanut face was yakking on and on about..dunno what lar.then clar and i were at the back doing some shit.hahahaha.i cant say what that shit is,ok.well its not shit,its just smth.-sniggers-
thanks clarchicks.!
mia was being totally crazy today.!he kept asking if i was okay thru sms.!hahaha.!
yesyes mia im okayyy.!(:
OH YESSSS.
art was such a short session today.!((:
he briefed this briefed that and then we were dismissed.honestly,i felt it was a total waste of time,but i still went anyways,since im such a good lil kiddo.-beams-
ARGHHH.IVE GOT CHINESE TUITION LATER.!AND THEN THERES THE BLOODY SCIENCE TUITION TMR.!: HATE HATE HATE HATE SCIENCE.)):its not even helping me much anyways.i feel like quitting.
lalala,no one's free ta talk to me now.!):
i shall go watch the innocent witch again then.BOREDOMMMM.
my second long entry.:Deveryone pls start reading and tagging.!

its all coming back.back again..

2004-10-26T06:05:00.000-07:00

)):
im very very irritated tonight.
im irritated with the whole world.
kenny says he'll only tag my board if i blog more often,but why.?theres nothing fer me ta blog about at all.and i doubt anyone's gonna tag my board even if i did blog more often.
nobody even visits.
this is such an ulu-ated blog.
but i shall just listen to kenny and blog more.((:
arent i just about the most obedient gf alive.?

today,as i said,was a irritating day.
firstly,mrs yeo was the main cause fer it all.like i totally didnt understand a single friggin thing she was talking about cus she was going sooooo fast.!like...ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM.!and then times up.!geeeesshhh.!she made soooo mad.!she made us draw a histogram with the stupid table and the stupid dunno-what-its-called polygon within 10 minutes.?like wth.?she thinks we're like pros at that sub or smth.madness.and im not being unreasonable kay.!if she had only like an hour i wouldnt be making so much noise,but the problem was,she had 2 hours.!wthwthwth.!!!-screams.-
and secondly,my cereal box had a lizarddddd.!)):then i hadta throw away my cereal.

then i rushed home after cca ta watch THE INNOCENT WITCH.its so so so so niceeee.!it taught me alot too.((:
makes me treasure my relationship.the relationship between the teacher and the student in the show was so similar to mine.always so problematci,but they end up together anyways.happy ending.(:love it.!i hope i have a happy ending too.so i shall try not ta throw tantrums at kenny.

sorry baby.!sorry sorry.!>.<

2004-10-25T04:33:00.000-07:00

boring boring day.):
watched the jap serial THE INNOCENT WITCH.yupp,thats all i did today.
thats all fer todayy.!cheers.!

all my love is all that i can give,
without u i dont think i can live,
i wish i could give the world to you,
to get to u i'd walk a thousand miles..

*theres nothing i wont do fer u.*

2004-10-21T20:48:00.000-07:00

yupp.its finally overr.i bet tonnes of girls are rejoicing.lol.
i guess things just couldnt work out,we were just too different.we had..different views of a relationship,he needed companionship,and i needed the attention more.and we couldnt give each other what we wanted.-nods-
im rather relieved its finally over,the past few days were really tiring.there were many happy times of course,but i guess we weren't ready.i think its pretty sad,i dont think he feels the same way,he seems ta be enjoying his singlehood.lol.i thought there was really smth special.
its a pity things didnt work out,really.i'll be taking a long long time ta get over this.but in the mean time,i shall just keep myself busy.ppl that do read this,pls help,dont talk to me about it.hahah.:D
i wont say i dont miss him,neither will i say dont love him anymore,cus i obviously do.theres no way i can get over stuff like these so fast.
kay i shall not go on,just makes me think more and more.):

more pics uploaded btw.!:Dand i finally got my new sch shoes.reebok again.haha,but i like it.shall take a picture another time.
now what was i gonna say.?
bahh i forgot.):

OHHH.!

yesyes to those biatches that were listening and bitching about me while i was breaking up,GET LOST.go get a life.sheesh.

alright alright,MOVE ON NOW YANGGS.theres no turning backk.

2004-10-21T09:45:00.000-07:00

this is badddd.badbadbad.i was so strong in sch and now im back ta square one.

MOVE ON DAMNIT.WHATS WRONG WITH U.